15dpo

cramping, heavy, bloated, thirsty, very very quiet, feeling like as soon as i stand up my period is just going to be so heavy. I am so confused. I just want this to be either positive or negative. I need to know. Its so different to trying naturally, i know that a perfect, healthy, good looking EMBRYO got placed in a perfect position in my uterus. And basically if it doesnt take, its my body and my uterus not keeping it.

the end of the 2WW................

Well i have been in this 2ww for nearly 2 weeks. I have had some af cramping on and off but tonight i feel like i could push out a period! (i am so sorry, but thats just how i feel) I feel heavy, bloated and ready to bleed. But in the same sentence i am also really thirst, tired, and mute. I have gone into my little box and i dont want to talk to anyone. I am happy to type and be on BUBHUB or FACEBOOK but thats about it. I am not even talking to josh, not cause i am angry or irratable, but cause i just have nothing to say!I spose this is just part of the 2WW fun. I keep trying to tell myself and remind myself that "WHAT WILL BE WILL BE". I cant change anything. And my body will do what it wants basically!

My IVF history

Cycle 1- 6 eggs, 5 embryos, 1 transfer- BFN
Cycle 2- over 50 follicles, cycle cancelled due to OHSS
Cycle 3- 18 eggs, 7 embryos, 7 frozen, 2 transfered- BFN
FET 1- 2 embryos transfered- Chem preg
FET 2- 2 embryos transfered- Chem Preg
FET 3- 1 embryo transfered- BFP!!!!! Sadly M/C on the 1/10/09
Cycle 4- 13 eggs, 11 embryos, 5 frozen, 1 transfered- waiting for the results on the 4th of january.

The Hutch!!!

12pdo

And i have started cramping.................I am 99% sure this cycle hasnt worked.......

Once again...........on the rollercoaster. :(

Also, today i got chooks!!!

If your going through infertility

If You Are Going Through Infertility (Read This to Yourself Every Morning!)
By Kristine Elam, RESOLVE of Georgia Member

If you are going through infertility and you get out of bed in the morning,
You are doing well.

If you are going through infertility and you hold down a job,
You are amazing.

If you are going through infertility and you are still remotely pleasant to others,
You are a lot nicer than me.

If you are going through infertility and you go to a friend's baby shower,
You are a good person, a stronger person than me, and I hope they appreciate how hard it is for you to be there.

If you are going through infertility and you cannot go to a friend's baby shower,
You are still a good friend and a strong enough person to know what is best for you.

If you are going through infertility and you decide to do that first IVF,
You are brave.

If you are going through infertility and you decide that an IVF is not something you want to put yourself through,
You are also brave.

If you are going through infertility and you decide to do "just one more treatment",
You are strong and have truly inspirational perserverance.

If you are going through infertility and decide that you can no longer do this,
You have the strength to know yourself and you are wise.

If you are going through infertility and you decide to adopt or use donor egg or sperm,
You have an open heart and are an inspiration to others.

If you are going through infertility and decide to live child free,
You know your heart and are able to open that big heart to all the children in your life.

If you are going through infertility and you cry daily,
You are normal.

If you are going through infertility adn seeing pregnant women or those with babies makes you sad, angry, jealous and worse,
Join the club.

If you are going through infertility and feel that your husband truly understands and is 100% supportive,
He is rare and a keeper.

If you are going through infertility and you have a good support system,
It will help ALOT.

If you are going through infertility and you don't have enough people who understand what you are going through,
I strongly recommend joining a support group

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