TTC diarys....note the 'S'!

My first TTC Diary was started on the 26th of Feb 2007......Married for 3 months, full of hope......HA! I had just picked up my Provera to start my 1st cycle to see if i ovulated naturally. The answer, NO. My hormones flat lined. Damn.........

My second diary was after my 2 operations on the 14th of August 2009. It ended on the 18th of september 2009, in a pregnancy......My little angel Jimmy. Jimmy was taken on the 1st of October 2009. Always loved, never EVER forgotten. "No words will ever be enough"-Ally Malone

So, i figure this isnt a TTC diary, its a sanity spot. I get so caught up in my emotions that i end up having my mind running at 1000 miles an hour and sleep is very limited.

xoxo

To start at the beginning would be smart..........

But, i dont feel like it!

So, i will start today, maybe i will get to what has happened so far, probably not right now though.

Tuesday December 15.

Day 42 of fresh cycle 4!

I am using Lucrin and Puregon, i was on the pill........

I am 28 days into needles and 4 days away from my egg retrieval.

I have had 2 ultrasounds so far, and 4 blood tests. I have another ultrasound and blood test tomorrow morning. They will determine whether i will have my eggs retrieved on friday or saturday. (not that it really matters to me) I am really hoping that there is between 15 and 20 eggs in there. It feels like there is about 30! I am so bloated, uncomfy and over it there better be a good amount of eggs!!! I am so emotional and just damn over the whole process. 4 years into this i have i spose a oval shaped uterus! LOL (hey look at me go letting you in on my past) But there is an empty kanoe, 2 chemical pregnancies, my lost baby "Jimmy", a whole heap of baby clothes and products, a very broken heart ,a nearly destroyed soul, and a marriage that knows that the this is the hardest thing that it will ever have to endure.

So anyway, there is alot to be thankful for in my life. I have a very wonderful home, family and an amazing bunch of women that i will love forever and ever that support me through thick and thin.

So first post done, i am sure there will be MORE!